This may not surprise most of you, but I apparently already have a reputation among the other classes at my school.
Shocking, I know.
Through the grapevine I have discovered that I have been referred to as the "guy who doesn't take shit from the professors" or "the guy who brings the real world into class."
Kinda cool, wouldn't you think? Except I've noticed a slightly perplexing side effect to this. It seems, almost, as if I'm being blackballed by certain professors.
That big multi-year research project I had mentioned a few months ago? It's suddenly vanished, along with the regular emails from the related professors. In one of my classes, management class, I am regularly ignored when my hand is raised.
Which leads me to this question, should I continue to speak up? Should I continue to push the envelope in our classes in order to ensure my fellow classmates, and future pharmacists, have a truthful view of the pharmacy world?
The me of 2-3 years ago would keep at it. Now that I have a wife, a child and a burgeoning career, I wonder if this is the best course of action. This isn't a small, unknown little school and I certainly do not want to create a negative perception of myself as I enter the pharmacy world as a pharmacist.
And since my plans have changed in the hopes of attaining a particular residency, I really do not want to shoot myself in the foot anymore than I have to.
So do I speak up at every inane situation presented, at every fairy-tale story told, at the incorrect information we're fed? Or do I pick and choose my battles and straddle the line of appeasing both sides.
Truly, I do not know. It's part of the reason why I have been "freakishly silent", as someone told me, the last few weeks.
What good is having a voice if it only spouts negativity?
I suppose that is the ultimate question I have been asking myself. And honestly, I do not have an answer.